It's been a while...

I'm clearly not good at this 'blogging' business, I just can never seem to find the time to sit down, uninterrupted and write.. but, I will do my best to update!

My baby boy, who as much as I do not want to admit, is not a baby anymore... he is a toddler, nearly 15 months old, WHERE did time go?! I feel like he was just born. He is growing so fast sometimes it makes me cry when I see him do something new, say a new word, conquer a new milestone, it is so bittersweet. He is doing so good though, still not even close to sleeping through the night, but as of right now, Cole is going to be our only child, so I treasure the moments when it's just him and I in the middle of the night, and the fact that he is still nursing just makes those moments even more precious and dear to my heart. I am in no hurry for him to fully grow up. Yea, while working full time and getting up in the middle of the night constantly really sucks, in the end, it is completely worth it because I know it isn't going to be that way forever. Now if I could only get my boy to say Mama, THAT will surely make me cry.. he says everything else under the sun practically EXCEPT for Mama, it's really quite sad.. but it's okay, because I know I'm his favorite person. haha.

Being a Mommy definitely has it's ups and it's downs, but at the end of the day when I kiss my little man, put him in his crib and watch him sleep, I reflect on everything, and I think back to the days before we had Cole, we were financially comfortable, didn't have to worry about anything, could buy (almost) anything we wanted, could go anywhere at any time for however long we wanted, we were only responsible for ourselves. Now that we have Cole, we have to pay bills late, watch the bank account so very carefully, watch it dip into mere pennies, live on cheap pre-packaged food at times so that we can buy Cole healthy, organic foods, plan every outting down to the minute, plan around naptimes and eating times, we always need to put his needs before ours, and I absolutely LOVE it, I cannot think of a single thing that I would change! My life just would truly not be complete if Cole was not part of my it, he truly fills a void in my heart I did not even know was there.

So much for uninterrupted writing, Cole is awake and wanting to nurse, so that is my signal to get going... I will try to keep this updated more frequently.